I gave up writing this post numerous times.
Mainly because I just felt it wasn’t worth it to pour these many words into describing the recent shitstorm I’ve been through; and also because it really puts me off to think about it. But I more or less steeled myself to type this upon receiving a little ‘farewell gift’ from the two ‘humans’ that were the main root of the problem.
I shall forever immortalize this person’s words as they’re a haunting reminder of said person’s hypocrisy and I guess the whole absurdity of the situation.
Here are the words of someone who received a top quality education from one of the top JCs in Singapore.
“Jealousy kills. Why can’t people leave things be and move on with life? Why must they make life difficult for others simply because they are living less better off than them? Are humans really such selfish self-centered people? Probably not all. Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”
The remainder of this was crossed out by the author (I’m supposing)
“Learn to respect. I pity you, it’s so it must be so difficult to live your life, not being able to be happy, contented. (I?) Forgive and forget. May GOD bless you. I hope that you will change to be a better man. You may know a man but you don’t know his story. Suspend judgement. Sigh, how can u make the world a better place?”
“吃人。。。？ In what way did we 吃人? We did more than we should. We helped out whenever you need help but all we received are hostility.”
What did I do to tick off this individual? I made him serve his NS like any normal guy in my unit should. I made him do duty; and from the looks of it he had a lot of free time actually, he even wrote 三字经 on the remainder of his letter.
Long story short, he’s been gone from work for a while (by that I mean quite a few months actually). While I’ve been doing nothing but work since last year. Under some unspoken agreement all the work was pushed to those below him while he sits at home playing DotA2 or doing charity work for some cause he supports.
Of course I don’t know this guy’s story; I’m not him, but here’s mine. He’s been missing for such a long time but claims that he still has off-in-lieus and leaves left to burn through until he ORDs. How bizarre! Wouldn’t it have all been used up given his appalling attendance rate? As Nov-Dec is a really popular time for the other ‘decent human beings’ in my unit to apply leave and offs, I pushed for priority to be given to those with actual leaves/offs. In doing so, I (un)knowingly summoned the wrath of this person (as well as the wrath of his pen!).
HOW DARE I, a mere person-in-the-same-capacity-as-aforementioned-person, drag him back to camp to do WORK which he has not even done in months?! THE ABSURDITY! I was definitely asking for it.
I’ll admit I was jealous. But who wouldn’t be. Here’s MY context; this guy started work 3 months before me, claims life was tough then. I start work and we’re pleasantly overstaffed so he takes it as his ‘god-sent, well-deserved, hard-earned miracle’ and moves into doing jobs like resting in his bunk, tending to miscellaneous jobs etc. A few months later, he’s just gone from camp totally. Poof!
But that’s no surprise at all since it’s an established ‘tradition’ of sorts where one or two months before someone ORDs they clear leaves and offs in one go (or even if they don’t have enough) until their ORD. Problem was, these guys were doing it way too early.
It’s not that they couldn’t help out with the work at all, it’s just that they didn’t lay a single finger to help make life easier for the rest of the lot. We were operating at full capacity with one man to each job. Using their clever A-level enriched brains they could have thought of putting two men to harder jobs instead of one; but alas it never dawned upon them.
“Are humans really such selfish self-centered people? Probably not all.”
Probably not all, but you were definitely one. Just think about it, any time you weren’t in camp helping out we were just going through a hard time which could’ve been made easier if you connected enough synapses to think to make working hours shorter; but alas, human beings (like yourself) were really such selfish self-centered people. Boohoo.
Why must they make life difficult for others simply because they are living less better off than them?
This part really cracked me up because it’s as though this person has never really lived before. It’s not about making life difficult; that’s how you see it from your perspective, I was just in your own words ‘making the world a better place’ (for my juniors and I). So that these guys who actually worked their ass off can take leave/off rather than that excess in manpower being used by you slackers.
The following segment was the best though, in my opinion. Wow this well-educated bloke really just threw one right back at himself.
“Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others to do unto you.”
Basically, what HE did in the past was stay at home and slack off while we were made to work in his place. So effectively, those few times when we called him back to do work so that others could take leave/off (be it to slack off/for other reasons) it was really just giving him a taste of his own medicine. And to be fair (to myself, not him) we’ve been working for way longer than the time this guy’s even worked for.
Look, if you didn’t want to do work in place of others, you shouldn’t have made others work in place of you. You should’ve just worked WITH others rather than against them; you could’ve turned a 24H hell-shift into a 12H shift with breaks in between. BUT ALAS, this was beyond them as ‘humans’ or should I say ‘selfish, self-centered people’. (something about the nuance of selfish self-centered made me giggle a bit)
I’d love to go into the ad hominem he pulled on me.
Firstly, ‘learn to respect’ the guy that hasn’t been contributing to your work and made your lives harder in more aspects than one. Let’s just say that he was involved in an incident that added more unnecessary administrative paperwork to our jobs.
“I pity you”
Well fuck yeah, I pity myself too for having such useless seniors. In fact, doesn’t you pitying me prove that you’ve been doing something wrong this whole time?
it’s so it must be so difficult to live your life, not being able to be happy, contented. (I?) Forgive and forget. May GOD bless you. I hope that you will change to be a better man.
My life is difficult, made difficult because of idiots like you who just spew garbage and think way too highly of themselves. I must admit though, I experienced new levels of ‘being happy and contented’ when I managed to drag you and your friend back to work. Lastly, he sends God’s blessings to me and hopes that I change to be a better man.
Right back at ‘ya dickhead.
But rest assured, I’m still within salvation so God’s blessing can(?) change me to be a better man; for you I’m not too sure… Honestly when you said ‘you forgive and forget’ I find that hard to believe since you obviously poured half your heart out into writing such a halfhearted diss-letter. Maybe that halfheartedness is wherein the ‘forgiveness’ lies.
“You may know a man but you don’t know his story. Suspend judgement. Sigh, how can u make the world a better place?”
What a way to end this ad hominem; with questioning how I can make the world a better place! That aside, what’s with the generic “you may know a man but you don’t know his penis size” quote? Of course I wouldn’t know your story. The next part really got me tho;
Please look at ALL that you’ve written ABOVE. In the sentences leading up to THIS SENTENCE, you have done nothing but judge ME; calling me out for being jealous of you, being selfish and disrespectful. I don’t know what suspend judgement means to you, but you really can’t be in that much denial right?
Before you sit your ass down on a pedestal to gaze down on me, please take a look at yourself. You’re just a hypocrite. The things you preach and the things you’ve done don’t add up;if anything they all ring hollow because they’re opposites. I don’t know what man you are but you damn well know your story. Stop living in denial that you had a good run during your National Service and made meaningful connections; you burnt a huge bridge and still chose to talk shit about it.
Lastly that part about “We did more than we should. We helped out whenever you need help but all we received are hostility.” that’s just your wishful thinking, and your poor grammar. What more did you do? Could the amount of work you did in the past before you transcended even compare to that of us who’ve been working non-stop since day 1?
The line ‘We helped out whenever you need help’ is the real deal-breaker for this sentence though. Would you like a medal for being a good person and helping out when asked to? I mean you who insists that not everyone is selfish and self-centered, you who forgive and forget. When we needed help, you were given ORDERs to help, so don’t make it sound like one of your charity donation drives and that we should be grateful that you help out. You’re supposed to do it, you know, as one of your so-called ‘humans’. Oh and don’t flatter yourself with ‘hostility’; it’s nothing that complex. Anyway, here’s to you becoming a better man (or woman for that matter).
That was really good to get off my chest.